I’m mid project at the moment, for a module for Uni, the module title is Human Being in Context and the goal is to explain who what where when and how we came to be, it’s not an essay *yay* it’s a creative project. I was so relieved about it being a creative project that I pretty much put it on the back burner happy that i had the ‘concept’ in my head and the the rest would be easy. That couldn’t be further from the truth.
A good proportion of this assignment is based around me as an individual, and what made me, influenced me, and about self awareness. I like to think after a good few years in therapy I’m pretty self aware, but you know it’s been a real challenge to sit down and spill it all out there again, everything, my history, faults, failings, successes, weakness, strengths and more searching still, my deepest darkest fears.
I’m happy with my ‘idea’ tutor said no essays but no other limits, most I know are doing scrapbooks, DVDs, posters, presentations etc, but as ever mention create and my brain goes into overdrive. I set myself the goal of creating a ‘brainbox’ a box square, but each box sideface covered in a picture of my head from different angles, you then lift the lid , the box falls away and inside are ‘leaves’ of basically what’s in my brain and how it got there.
Some of it I’m really happy with, some of it less so, I think I have given up a bit with it, but I’m running out of time to change it, and not sure if I’m just changing it for the sake of saying ‘it’s not as good as it could be’
Between the layers, I’ve ‘hidden’ my fears and bad stuff, to get the full message they are going to have to virtually destroy this thing, and it’s bugging me that that in itself is a bad thing, why would I want them to destroy this thing? am I just trying to go for maximum drama or effect, or have them calling the funny farm?
I suppose I want them to know that I have put an awful lot of thought and effort into this project, that I have really tried to do something a bit different, but have I taken it a step too far? What am I saying about myself that you have to destroy ‘me’ to fully understand me? Or am I examining my belly button too much about this and it’s actually just a project and I’m going for best affect. It’s hard not to think about this when you’re on a course like this, you spend a lot of time thinking about what your doing and why you’re doing it
On the lighthearted side of this I’m filling the box with glass marbles, so when they lift the lid the only way to get inside is to spill the marbles all over… Get it… Losing my marbles.. Am hoping it might make them laugh.. I’m going for the sympathy vote!
I’ll let you know how I get on, who knows maybe I should have kept it simple, chances are that’s exactly what i should have done!
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